In Love : Before and Now

It started as butterflies, but now it just hurts

You have no idea how much you mean to me

Why some days does the heart seem to choke out

Why some days Does the heart
Seem to choke out
The sun
For no explainable
Reason
May the sun find me
Today ~

He destroyed me

He destroyed me crippling passion to love I welcome its despair he created pain I know this tasting blood in my tears

I Knew You Would Leave Me

When you love, You get hurt.

When you love...
You get hurt !
When you get hurt...
You try to hate !
When you hate...
You try to forget !
When you try to forget...
You start missing !
When you start missing...
You fall in love again !!!

Does the pain ever go away?

Does the pain
Ever go away?
Of seeing your face
Day after day
Will you ever know
The depths I take
To try and show
We could be great
Do you see
The lies inside
That torture me
And this life?

But you’ll never see
You’ll never want me
And I’ll always be
Here for you to believe
I would die for you
Take my life at your word
But that won’t matter to you
And I’ll fade in your world

The anger I show
The hate I feel
It’s not for you
But because of me
I love you
More than just friends
I’ll die for you
In the very end
But I hate myself
For loving you
I wish I’d tell
You this too

But you’ll never see
You’ll never want me
And I’ll always be
Here for you to believe
I would die for you
Take my life at your word
But that won’t matter to you
And I’ll fade in your world

In my head
I see us there
Hand in hand
Something so rare
But reality stings
And the truth hurts too
Much more than
I thought it would
I love you so much
I only want happiness for you
I love you so much
I want her to be with you

But you’ll never see
You’ll never want me
And I’ll always be
Here for you to believe
I would die for you
Take my life at your word
But that won’t matter to you
And I’ll fade in your world

I’ll step aside
Be the friend
You’ll get that girl
Again and again
And me and you
Will just be close
Nothing more
That’s what you know

But you’ll never see
You’ll never want me
And I’ll always be
Here for you to believe
I would die for you
Take my life at your word
But that won’t matter to you
And I’ll fade in your world.

I Want Nobody

 

 I Want Nobody...

.... Just You Forever...

Last Goodbye

Letting Go

Blank Paper

I try to write of happiness
The times we loved to share
But nothing comes to mind
Maybe we are not the perfect pair

I try to write of laughter
All the jokes that you once told
But as I look way back
The memories are far too old

I try to write of life
How much we both have grown
But the more I think about it
The more of it is unknown

I try to write of future
What our destiny has in store
But it is a hidden secret
I need a key to the locked door

I try to write of love
Instead of constant rage
But nothing comes to mind
As I sit and stare at the blank page..

Why does Love hurt so much?

Why does Love hurt so much?

Love hurts so much because we allow it to hurt.
It's human nature. Getting hurt is a part of life.
It's how you handle the hurt or how you allow it to affect you.
When two people are in a relationship there are good times and bad times being in a relationship is a great feeling.

Knowing that you have a person that loves you is such a wonderful thing.
But sometimes people put to much faith in other people and then when that person doesn't live up to the other person's expectations then there are a huge amount of disappointment and hurt.
Why do we allow other people to control our emotions?

A broken heart really is one of the worst feelings in the world.
When you find out somebody that you love, somebody that you gave such a huge part of yourself to betrayed you, is indescribable.
You feel this pain in the middle of your chest and it literally just aches.
It hurts oh so bad!
And then the tears and crying set in, opinion you do need to allow yourself to grieve.

You need to accept everything that has happened and then you just need to look inside yourself to find the courage and strength needed to move on.

This is so much easier said than done.

It is a part of life.
One thing we have to learn is when one door closes three more usually open.

Everything happens for a reason.
You must be strong and simply commit to yourself.

It Hurts...

It hurts when you dont call,
When you say you love me but your with her.
When you don't talk to me I feel small.
My world goes in stall.

It hurts to look at you,
To remember the lies that you told.
and to think I thought they were true.
I use to be so bold.

It hurts to remember what you said,
when you said goodbye.
That I was never good enough just good in bed.
You dont know how hard I try
Try to forget you.

How every night I tell myself those things you said aren't true.
I try to move on and find something new.
The more I try the more I think about you,

It hurts to know that you could careless,
that you forgot about me.
You never stress
I guess you'll never see...

See how you hurt me.

- Vanessa Marie

Love Hurts…

Luv Hurts...

My luv is too big for me to care about
but its too small for u to think about…


Thou my nights r colorful wit Ur dreams
still my days mourn in ur absence.


Even in a strand of Ur hair, I see my luv
but u glimpse my luv as a strand of hair…


Ur words are octets and Ur silence is my sonnet.
still it portrays only elegiacs


U mean so much & I care dat much
nothing I expect, & am set aback
better I watch u from there
so far yet so near…


Not all gestures of love
strokes of ur lash will do
i’ll be fulfilled


When I think of luv, I think of U
both hurt me,


Luv hurts me with U,
and U hurt me without luv...